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now? is it important?
[ because that is the sound of her door opening and closing, and footsteps walking down the hall and passing by his door. ]
[ because that is the sound of her door opening and closing, and footsteps walking down the hall and passing by his door. ]
[ how ominous. but she simply shrugs, taking a seat on the pews. she's hoping to go out again, but it looks like it'll have to wait. ]
Shouldn't Lelouch be included if it's important?
Shouldn't Lelouch be included if it's important?
No. Lelouch doesn't need to be included in everything we do.
[Emphasis on we. Suzaku sits across from Davina on the pew, and while Lelouch isn't a factor in this conversation, there's room enough between the two of them that he could easily fill in the space.]
This is about what happened the other day. I took advantage of you.
[Emphasis on we. Suzaku sits across from Davina on the pew, and while Lelouch isn't a factor in this conversation, there's room enough between the two of them that he could easily fill in the space.]
This is about what happened the other day. I took advantage of you.
[ lelouch probably has a different opinion on the matter, but carry on. davina takes a good moment staring past his shoulder before she responds. things are still a little fuzzy for her regarding that day, but: ]
I wouldn't really say that. I had a hand in it as well, so.
I wouldn't really say that. I had a hand in it as well, so.
[ davina's surprised this church hasn't exploded yet from all of self-deprecating habits combined. ]
I ate the fruit, I came onto you, you reacted accordingly. If anything, I'm the one who owes you an apology, so you shouldn't beat yourself up over it.
[ she probably owes lelouch an apology too. indirectly. ]
I ate the fruit, I came onto you, you reacted accordingly. If anything, I'm the one who owes you an apology, so you shouldn't beat yourself up over it.
[ she probably owes lelouch an apology too. indirectly. ]
[Self-flagellation and churches go hand-in-hand, you know.]
I can't accept an apology from you when you had no control over yourself. You were the only one who ate that fruit. I have no excuse.
[So here's a reason instead, poorly timed as it is. Suzaku looks Davina in the eye when he speaks, much as he doesn't want to, because it's necessary.]
I like you. The last thing I want to do is cause you any harm, but that's all I seem to be capable of.
I can't accept an apology from you when you had no control over yourself. You were the only one who ate that fruit. I have no excuse.
[So here's a reason instead, poorly timed as it is. Suzaku looks Davina in the eye when he speaks, much as he doesn't want to, because it's necessary.]
I like you. The last thing I want to do is cause you any harm, but that's all I seem to be capable of.
[ and she thought she was bad at it, omg! her roommates continue to surprise her every single day. davina sighs, closing her eyes for a bit as she tries to figure out the best way to go about with this. ]
... I have a feeling we'll just be going back and forth with apologies and nonacceptance all day, so how about we agree to forget about it and move on? What's done is done, and we have no way of changing our decisions back then.
[ they were both hurt in some way, but moving past this can take that hurt away. or at least, make it hurt less. ]
And I like you too, Suzaku. But I can't be your responsibility forever. You have yourself and Lelouch to look after, too.
... I have a feeling we'll just be going back and forth with apologies and nonacceptance all day, so how about we agree to forget about it and move on? What's done is done, and we have no way of changing our decisions back then.
[ they were both hurt in some way, but moving past this can take that hurt away. or at least, make it hurt less. ]
And I like you too, Suzaku. But I can't be your responsibility forever. You have yourself and Lelouch to look after, too.
[Forget? Suzaku doesn't know the meaning of the word, but he won't insist on being unreasonable. They're both sorry, fair enough, but he still owes her a proper apology.
Leaning back against the pew, Suzaku folds one leg over the other.]
No, you can't be. You're capable of defending yourself and making your own choices. [A sigh. No, a huff.] Why do you keep mentioning Lelouch?
[Yes, that's bothering him. He'll get back onto the subject of apologies in just a minute.]
Leaning back against the pew, Suzaku folds one leg over the other.]
No, you can't be. You're capable of defending yourself and making your own choices. [A sigh. No, a huff.] Why do you keep mentioning Lelouch?
[Yes, that's bothering him. He'll get back onto the subject of apologies in just a minute.]
[ don't huff at her. it doesn't suit you, noodle. ]
Lelouch is part of this group, isn't he? So he's part of this conversation about responsibility, even if he's not here.
[ because lbr, he needs suzaku's attention and care more than the two of them combined. so she has to emphasise him. ]
Are we good?
Lelouch is part of this group, isn't he? So he's part of this conversation about responsibility, even if he's not here.
[ because lbr, he needs suzaku's attention and care more than the two of them combined. so she has to emphasise him. ]
Are we good?
[Huff!! Yelling loudly suits Suzaku much better, but again, there's a certain nag he's trying very hard not to wake up.]
No, we're not good. I'm talking to you, not to Lelouch, and not to our group.
[Anger really does become him, but the last thing Suzaku wants to do right now is lose his temper. He's trying very hard not to.]
If you don't want to talk to me, that's fine, but don't treat me like I'm not an individual with my own thoughts and feelings.
No, we're not good. I'm talking to you, not to Lelouch, and not to our group.
[Anger really does become him, but the last thing Suzaku wants to do right now is lose his temper. He's trying very hard not to.]
If you don't want to talk to me, that's fine, but don't treat me like I'm not an individual with my own thoughts and feelings.
[ davina falls quiet again, if only to let him vent. rising up to his anger isn't going to help them, and it's not like she doesn't understand his frustrations. but her point stands, she's not accepting his apology. ]
That was not my intention at all, Suzaku. [ and he knows it, but sure, go off on her. ] I'm just saying that if this happens again, and you know it will, then you need to be responsible for yourself first and foremost and other people next.
[ so they don't have to rehash this same argument again. ]
That was not my intention at all, Suzaku. [ and he knows it, but sure, go off on her. ] I'm just saying that if this happens again, and you know it will, then you need to be responsible for yourself first and foremost and other people next.
[ so they don't have to rehash this same argument again. ]
[At this rate, they'll never get off this subject, so Suzaku switches gears. Compared to the alternative, however, perhaps Davina will wish they had.
Just as bluntly as he'd asked Lelouch, Suzaku turns to Davina and begs his question.]
You have a card too, don't you? Show it to me.
Just as bluntly as he'd asked Lelouch, Suzaku turns to Davina and begs his question.]
You have a card too, don't you? Show it to me.
[ her expression briefly changes from surprise to confusion to just plain severe in under a minute. like yeah, davina doesn't wish to remain on the subject of whatever transpired between them but she also doesn't want this. ]
No. [ she shakes her head. can he not. ] I won't show it to you, Suzaku.
No. [ she shakes her head. can he not. ] I won't show it to you, Suzaku.
[ look at the mental olympics happening here. davina's in disbelief. if this is suzaku's way of apologising, then it's a shitty apology and she's not going to stand for it (even if she's sitting right now). ]
How did you even get to that conclusion? You need to cool off your head, Suzaku.
[ does he need help? she'll be happy to throw water in his face. ]
How did you even get to that conclusion? You need to cool off your head, Suzaku.
[ does he need help? she'll be happy to throw water in his face. ]
[No, this is Suzaku taking a minor issue and turning it into a major problem. As he does.]
I'm fine, Davina. Just fine. I can't force you to tell me anything you don't want to, but I wish you'd place some faith in me. I want to help you.
[He gets that he can't do much, isn't good for much, but please.]
I'm fine, Davina. Just fine. I can't force you to tell me anything you don't want to, but I wish you'd place some faith in me. I want to help you.
[He gets that he can't do much, isn't good for much, but please.]
[ more like he's taking another person's problem and making it his own. and again, it's something that davina won't stand for.
it has nothing to do with what he's capable or not capable of doing, because god knows she can't do everything herself. but they have more than enough to deal with, suzaku especially with lelouch in tow. he knows this, she knows this. ]
I trust you and I appreciate that you want to help me. [ she does, really. ] But it's my card and it's my problem to deal with. You have enough on your plate without me adding to it.
it has nothing to do with what he's capable or not capable of doing, because god knows she can't do everything herself. but they have more than enough to deal with, suzaku especially with lelouch in tow. he knows this, she knows this. ]
I trust you and I appreciate that you want to help me. [ she does, really. ] But it's my card and it's my problem to deal with. You have enough on your plate without me adding to it.
[Why won't anyone let him be helpful??? Goddamn. Everyone around him is so fucking stubborn, including himself.]
...somehow, I wonder if you'll do anything with that card. You don't seem like the type who would easily cast aside your modesty.
[Unlike Suzaku. Unlike Lelouch, apparently.]
...somehow, I wonder if you'll do anything with that card. You don't seem like the type who would easily cast aside your modesty.
[Unlike Suzaku. Unlike Lelouch, apparently.]
[ pot, kettle, etc. this church needs to be purified again and be removed of any trace of self-deprecation. it's starting to suffocate her already.
shrugging: ] Who knows? I might be desperate enough for 3 decent meals every day that I might do something with it.
[ very, very unlikely when she's been dealing with the same tasteless (and sometimes close to rotting) food that she's been finding for a month now, and she's so far survived. she has higher tolerance for this kind of bullshit than most people, having dealt with it before. ]
My point is, it's not something that should be weighing on your mind at all.
shrugging: ] Who knows? I might be desperate enough for 3 decent meals every day that I might do something with it.
[ very, very unlikely when she's been dealing with the same tasteless (and sometimes close to rotting) food that she's been finding for a month now, and she's so far survived. she has higher tolerance for this kind of bullshit than most people, having dealt with it before. ]
My point is, it's not something that should be weighing on your mind at all.
[...so she says, yet Davina won't show Suzaku any of the terrible things she'd be left to do in exchange for some actual food.
Suzaku sighs loudly, unwilling to censor himself in the face of Davina's stubbornness.]
You live with people who can help you. Turning to strangers for those sorts of things isn't the best idea.
Suzaku sighs loudly, unwilling to censor himself in the face of Davina's stubbornness.]
You live with people who can help you. Turning to strangers for those sorts of things isn't the best idea.
[ he can sigh a million times, but she's not budging, even folding her arms across her chest to get her point across. pot, kettle, whatever. there are honestly more important things that he should be thinking of than her own desire for a plate of beignets. ]
But it is, because then, I won't have to worry about what kind of a relationship this stranger and I will have in the end, other than something mutually beneficial.
But it is, because then, I won't have to worry about what kind of a relationship this stranger and I will have in the end, other than something mutually beneficial.
Edited (i hate myself ) 2020-06-19 18:55 (UTC)
[Suzaku can concern himself with whatever he damn well wants to, thank you, including whatever strangers Davina will come to rely on for 'favors' in the future.
Look. If she sees any big, intimidating blond men anywhere near this church, they'll be having words.]
Do you think you'd have that issue with me?
[Do you think Suzaku is the kind of person to fall ass over heels for people super easily? He is, but on what grounds can she accuse him of such???]
You sound scared.
Look. If she sees any big, intimidating blond men anywhere near this church, they'll be having words.]
Do you think you'd have that issue with me?
[Do you think Suzaku is the kind of person to fall ass over heels for people super easily? He is, but on what grounds can she accuse him of such???]
You sound scared.
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